My Big Decision

Well, I've decided to do my own blog mostly as a way to sort through my thoughts and feelings. I'm not very good a keeping a journal so for now I feel this is the best way. I've spent a lot of time reflecting on my life lately. I've realized I have a long way to go before I become who I want to be. I've also realized that getting there requires baby steps. "Line upon line, precept upon precept." I don't have to be perfect tomorrow to be worth anything. Heavenly Father didn't put me on this earth to become perfect. He put me here to learn and grow. So, I've been looking at all the things I do and how I do them. I've learned a lot about myself lately and my weaknesses. Now, I'm not being pessimistic in any way. I do have a lot of strengths, but it's the weaknesses I need to change or improve upon if I'm going to improve as a person. That all starts by seeing and admitting there needs to be a change. Wow, so the hardest part is over and I realize there's more to me than all my faults. The last few days I've been trying to keep in my mind the things I need to do better, or differently as I go about my day. For example, the way I treat my children and my tone of voice in talking with them. I admit I've let the daily pressures of raising a family get to me. I've been very stressed out lately yelling a lot. At this point I decided something has to change. I've been trying to talk softer, saying please and thank you more, and taking more time to listen. I've always been good about giving hugs, kisses, and lots of compliments, but I needed to do better. It's definitely been more peaceful in my home and I've been less stressed. They don't behave any better but the spirit can't change my home if I'm keeping him out.